LEEDS FEST BABY!

So I went last year by lucking onto a last minute ticket and this year me and the lads are going again :D the line-up looks amazing and I just found this brilliant little app for a count-down :D

I will probably keep a few updates running and rant about it's brilliance so check often if you want... so much for the early night's eh... ahwell, until next time...

Something that's way over-due...

So this the aforementioned way overdue post ... I was intending on having this one up ready for the weekend... but in the end I decided the weekend was an exception (due to a mild alcohol induced case of cba) and so put the fresh start on Monday ...

Basically things for me took a downwards tumble ... I spent about a fortnight where I did little more than get out of bed for food... I think I went to about 3 lectures ... and my health went out the window...

I guess I had some kind of moment of realisation when simply walking 3 times the distance to the shop left me in a fair amount of pain, that I need to sort my life the fuck out ... I rant/complain (whine like a bitch) about women and dating alot ... but right now (Thursday 25th) I wouldn't date me ... I'm a mess ...

So I'm going to get healthy for starters ... starting Monday I'm going on proper cycling sessions every day ... Not only is this going to get me healthier but it will help sort out my head ... I may have said this before ... but for those who didn't know ... basically cycling takes the place of religion in my life ... it's something I need in my life ... I turn to it when I'm mentally weak ... no matter what it makes me feel better ... and it's real ........ ok so that last part must be what stops it being an actual religion ... but I digress haha.

I'm going to be eating healthily when possible, starting each day with bran-flakes sultana's and a glass of smoothie packing in 2 of my 5 and a good start to the day... and then trying to be healthier with my meals.

Sleeping ... this is a big one for me ... I am attempting to make early starts this holidays... setting my alarm for 8am Mon-Fri and 9am for the weekends ... however this has yet to be so successful due to late night's and alcohol... and many-a snooze has been pressed... which brings me nicely onto my next point:

Alcohol ... I'm not going to say I will axe alcohol because this will be an unrealistic goal ... However as of Tuesday this week I have been sober ... and I aim to stay so for a while ... in theory it will be about until the 9th when I go on holiday ... but I have a few friends birthdays coming up that I may be persuaded into drinking for ... but the thought is there along with the saved cash ... so I will keep you posted on this one and do my best ... but I am thinking I will try and do a month straight once I am back at uni for both mind and body's sake, at one point I was growing a bit of a cider belly haha.

Now as a follow-up to the sleep I will be doing my damnedest to attend all my lectures upon returning ... and before then I will catch up on the work I have missed and make some decent head-way with my coursework ... and cut out pointlessly late nights ... or excessive procrastination:

Xbox ... recently I got stuck into Oblivion ... great game ... and the immersiveness of the RPG game certainly helped me get my mind out of my own world ... but I have chosen not to take it home for Easter, and upon return I shall stick family settings on, to force myself to play no more that 2-3 hours a day... I am undecided upon which limit to go for (lets say first comment chooses - unlikely as that is)

Perhaps this may seem a pointless and uninteresting blog post to ... all 7 of you? :P ... but I need to have some sense of responsibility to follow this ... I have had numerous attempts at this kind of thing fail because I simply couldn't be bothered... which I hope to stamp out by feeling a responsibility to do this because I published that I would and I hate to be a liar ('cause I'm not am I Boo! ? :P ) ... So sorry if this seems dull ... but maybe it will make me a more interesting person ... and so a more interesting blogger ... meh ... who knows? ... but I will keep you all posted and we'll see what happens ...

If you read this far down then big love to you ... any suggestions as for punishments for failing or goals for encouragement? ... well you know where the comment box is ... it would be appreciated ... even if it is just to say "1st" lol

Sorry Nation :(

So some things I meant to publish a while ago (especially the next one) and sorry that there has been a bit of a back-log today, but I haven't been posting as and when, like I meant to ... oops ... I'm attributing this to the fact that I am now back home for a while for the Easter break ... this means a hectic phase of seeing everyone and excessive partying, which don't get me wrong is great, but I have been left with not much downtime, and when I do my crappy home internet crashes or decided that it doesn't want to provide coverage to my room consistently ¬_¬ but I'll try to get back to the semi frequent posting as before... but here's a few for now :) enjoy... and big love

Optimism? :O Surely not?...

So as is apparent to everyone I am a huge cynic :) ... and especially so when it comes to matters of "love" and "romance" (inverted comers for a reason) ... Well (sit down now) for once I have a spot of optimism *dramatic music shock horror* ...

Now to clear this up ... I don't mean that things are going my way for once ... don't be so silly as to even think that ... infact if you did think that just GTFO right now ... and don't come back without an apology sammich! ... sorry ...

But back on topic, it would seem that something has finally come through for the nice guy ... and as you know ... that just doesn't happen ... ever ... so has the world gone to the dogs ... or has this one female developed the sense as some form of evolution ... so now she will be more successful with the nice guy and so prosper and slowly filter out the rest of woman-kind ... well one can only hope that for the sake of future blokes that are decent ... because they are sadly being faded out by the fact that you have to be a dick to......... sorry I'm fading back into pessimism here ... my bad :/

But this does still astound me ... and while there is a hint of jealousy ... I don't begrudge the guy at all ... because I can't think of anyone that deserves it more than him ... and while of course I will mock him with my cynicism, I am really happy for him (though I he is too nice to read this blog so the praise is somewhat falling on deaf ears) but this does leave me with a spark of hope ... because if there is one ... then there could be more ... maybe there will be three more, for me plus two (you guys know who you are) ... maybe I'ma stay hopeful for this one ... doubt it though lol...

Clarification

Just to clear something up for the non-believers... GeeGee is Louise Harrison... now get her to explain why :P

Finding Love...

Random QOTD:

Finding your true love is like a bad blow-job... it sucks, it hurts, and it takes too long...

Enjoy ;)

This page cannot be found...

I never realised how much we (or namely I) rely on the internet day-in day-out until I didn't it was down... now by this I don't mean that the internet was sad, I mean unavailable... my halls at uni were disconnected from the rest of the world for all of Thursday AND all of Saturday.

Now this may not seem like much to some of you, but consider this... say I were to ask you "How much is 1million yen is GBP?" then if your initial thought is anything other than to Google it you are either and international banker... or a liar... so either way... you're a liar.

Basically the internet is used for so much that we depend on it... take it for granted... and it is a full part of our every day lives... Some try and call it anti-social... but it is in fact a major part of communication... facebook, skype, internet phone, msn, blogs, news casts, youtube... yes even youtube is a great form of communication... I'm a student, I can't afford a TV licence... so now my main form of news is from youtube... the topical rants of sxephil are how I find out most of what's happening in the world... backtracking over what previous video's I found that I had missed alot of things when I wasn't using the internet... I didn't know of the death of actors that I like... and I still wouldn't know if it weren't for the internet... I would just consider a lapse in new releases to be lazy...

Now aside from news, and searching for information, there is friends... At Uni, random visitations aside, I only have the potential to see 3 of my friends from 6thform, which compared to some is 3 more than they get... but this means that If I want to keep in contact with any of my other friends I need to find another way... letters would of course be the original option... and as my favourite twins (hey if you are reading this) know I am epically slow at writing my replies... and I guess this shows the main advantage in the upgrades of communication technology... from letter to email... replying takes just as long, but the transfer of message is free, and happens in a near instant, no matter how far away, and then telephone, going to internet phone, making long distance calls free (yes I mean Skype) instead of a fortune a minute... making them far more accessible... it means I am able to talk to my friend in New Zealand with ease... assuming I am up early or late enough... which is quite frankly amazing... and we do take this for granted...

Now I know there are plenty of other amazing things in this world... but I'm sure next time one of them is removed from me (FOR TWO OUT OF THREE FUCKING DAYS!) that I will have a good old rant about them...

Well that's all for now, I'm hoping that the internet will stay up and I will be able to post some more stuff on the interwebs for y'all... I'm off to conform to the emotional blackmail of one of the aforementioned twins :) big love xxx

Fan-Boy-Pages...

So I'm big on social networking... by this I don't mean the I have 9million friends on myspace all from Israel, or that I tweet every bowel movement I have (like you know you should GeeGee). But generally my laptop is on all day, signed into MSN (busy) and facebook is up on one of the browsers on one of the screens. So when something ruins it for me it does rattle my cage... and I don't mean "we want old facebook back because I can't handle change and have so little life that I complain when something attempts to excel in the mediocracy based society we live in... and if people join my page I can pretend I have friends".

The thing that has pissed me off recently (and this is beyond the server changeover where it would 10 attempts before you could 'like' something... or changing your profile picture resulted in removing it... or a mindless painful nothingness that somehow requires lots of loading... fags!) is (yes there is a sentence in here somewhere) those annoying "become a fan to see a picture that is in some way related to an intriguing title involving the words LOL and OH-EM-JEE" pages (wasn't really worth all that reading was it?).

Fan pages have always bugged me a bit, despite the vast amount of them that I "agree with"... oops I mean "become a fan of" ... because let's face it, it's not like it was intended where you would be a fan of someone famous or an entity worthy of fans. It is simply you read a statement and agree with, or find it amusing, and so click the button in support. So when I finally got to terms with this they had to some up with something new... If there is a funny picture on the internet... I want to see it... IF I like it, I might go as far as to become a fan of a page based solely around that image. I shouldn't have to become a fan just to see an image that 9/10times is totally overrated... I don't want to have to make my friends hate me by inviting them either... I have managed to grind my friend list down to about 250people that I actually give a shit about now, I don't need to give them a reason to give less of a shit about me by inviting them to shitty fan boy fan pages... or spamming up their home page with "Joe Curious and ALL of your other friends became a fan of..." it's just fucking annoying.

Initially when these were first around I did actually join one. However how should this entity that I am supposedly a "fan" of repay me? well by every time it hits a "milestone" amount of fans... like one that ends in a zero... yer that's a milestone to the creators... well they deem it necessary to announce this to it's "fan"base and then require me to further alienate my friends by pestering them to "become a fan". Both of which I could do if I wanted to by visiting their page - if it had any decent content that was worth recommending - and ACTUALLY DOING SO!

So as I imagine you can guess I will not be joinging any of them... and take any opportunity I can to 'Hide' them from my facebook... job done!

Thanks for hearing me out... big love.

Plugging Outsiders...

So I'm just sharing the stuff that I love on the net, kinda what inspired me with this... so thanks

http://www.youtube.com/user/sxephil

Guy rants about stuff and its funny and generally good... talks about topical stuff that matters to him... and tbh me...

http://ei8htyei8ht2010.blogspot.com/

friend of mine blogging a poker challenge, turning $100 into $100K ... needs all the online support he can get for following the blog...

Big love until the next time...

Scrubs QOTD

Scrubs QOTD:

I don't think people are meant to be by them selves. That's why if you actually find someone you care about, its important to let go of the little things. Even if you cant let go all the way. Because nothing sucks more than being all alone... no matter how many people are around you.

and you know it's true...

A Rant About Religion...

This one was actually pointed out to me by my father. He himself is a clear-cut atheist, while I am more a sceptical agnostic.

To background the rant: my sister is emotional, sensitive, and devoutly Chrisitian... which in itself is fine. We've always had our bad moments, but generally we get on OK. 2 years ago she started uni, and this year so did I, personally I felt that the time apart has brought us closer together when we do see each other...

Anyways, the other week I go an email from her (so long that it's a wonder googlemail didn't crash) and amongst the general crap about us growing apart *sadface* there was a massive chunk about how "Jesus loves you more than you could ever know" and how I "just need to let him into my life"... imagine Jahova's whitness's with technological capabilities :S

This I met with my standard "here she goes again" internal response, along with "bitch stop acting like you're better than me!" that every brother has for his sister... This is until my Dad, who received similar emails, pointed out to me the subtext... essentially my sister was sending me an email saying "SINNER YOU'RE GOING TO HELL!.. PS I'm not so HAHAHAHA!"...

Now this got me thinking... isn't Jesus supposed to love us all? ... equally? ... so why would he send some of us to hell, and grant others eternal happy in heaven? Surely this shows favouritism? ... and how can you justifiably condemn someone you love to an eternity of torture? I'm not sure I could even do that to someone I hate.

Also, what sort of inequality and fucked up place would grant access to a paedophile (catholic priest) over a scientist (atheist/evolutionist) who cured cancer? Does this heaven actually sound like such a great place now?..

Better to have loved, lost, and then ranted...

So... I keep hearing the phrase and it bugs me... so I thought I would put fingers to keyboard ("pen to paper" upgraded) and rant it out... it's a phrase I'm sure you've all heard before... "It's better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all"

Well, is it? I mean really... 'cause I can think of plenty of counter phrases to disagree on a general level... "Ignorance is bliss" ... "You don't know what you've got till it's gone" ... and my favourite "I didn't want it until you said I couldn't have it". Now I realise that these are all general quotes where as the one on trial is more specific... but with the exception of 6million Jews, strength in numbers is often a significant factor in victory.

Now I have to think back to when people said that to me... and to be honest friends will say all this kind of stuff to cheer you up, as they should. So I guess it is said without any real conviction, and to draw any real conclusion a measure of "good" would have to be taken before and after a person is in "love". Now the quote marks are used there because I am sceptical of the concept... and to borrow from the great snow patrol - Those three words are said too much, they're not enough - and I couldn't agree more. Far too many people say they are in love and don't mean it, something I myself have been guilty of once, and even if they think they mean it, people today just don't know what love is. Blowing a dude before you are out of you're training bra doesn't count as a first love! Now before you (the internet) jumps on the defensive and ask where my authority comes from, well yes, I was in love, once, for over three years... and if it didn't hurt, well you weren't in love - anal doesn't count btw.

Ok, so here is where I go kinda DM (Deep and Meaningful) so if your idea of emotional depth is smiling when you don't have to ask first... then skip to the next para... Anyways, basically, recent events have led me to re-evaluate my life a bit, and yes that is in relation to women, see some of my other posts if you want to get a background view of things there lol. So yer, I got to thinking... I've been in love once, just over a year ago now, and although women, and small relationships have come and gone, nothing substantial, nothing special... and I find myself craving that feeling again, almost to the point that I miss what I left to be better off... something that I never thought I would say... and it leaves me feeling pathetic... 'cause before I got the achievement that is love... I was never this bad, I mean sure I wanted a girlfriend and the whole deal that is "love" but I didn't know what it was like, what it was that I was missing out on, I didn't feel like I needed it... things were simpler... a lot simpler, and I know that life in general was simpler then, but still, there has got to be something in it... and I'm sure I can't be the only one... surely not?

So I guess there is only one conclusion I can take from this, "It's better to have never loved, than to have loved and lost, but better still to love, and still love, and be loving it" because at the end of the day, isn't that what we all want... should such a thing really exist...

Now I'm off to shower this moment off and do manly things like crushing baby's and drinking beer (well cider for me)... so I'm glad we talked this out internet... feel free to comment, I believe I have about 4 readers now, and none of them are my mom...

Much love... the friend kind that is... I have more faith in it atm...

Sleep Based Rant

So this is something that really bugged me in the past, and especially last night.

As those of you who know me will know I suffer from insomnia... which quite frankly sucks... so this often leaves me sleeping at stupid times for not that long, leaving my sleeping pattern totally f*cked. Recently I had some friends come up n visit which was great, but part of this was staying up till about 7am chatting and catching up on things.

I decided (wisely or otherwise) that I would stay up the next night and wait till the next night before sleeping so as to reset my body clock... Throughout the day this seemed to be going well, I didn't feel awake, n in the early evening I felt quite drowsy at time. However at about 10:30 when I decided to watch the latest 24 before sleeping at an not unreasonable (for a student) 11:15... suddenly my body decided it wasn't tired after all and so I didn't manage to get to sleep till about 4am... I woke at about 4pm so decided to repeat the process this time more successfully... I fell asleep about 1am while waiting for a reply from a friend, slept so deeply infact that I received 3 texts in the night without noticing.

This brings me on to my point that I discovered. Late night texting can lead to lying in bed waiting for the person to text back, while closing your eyes and resting. Now I found my self slowing drifting off between each reply within a few minutes of placing my phone down, only to wake again each time I get a text. Which in itself isn't so bad, and is restful at least.

The thing that really annoyed me is that the instant the conversation ended, the good nights were said, and I put my phone down, this time waiting for nothing, allowing my self to surcome to the sleep... nothing... I simply can't sleep... despite the fact that I am now willing to sleep whereas before I wasn't, now I can't sleep... it took me a further hour of restlessness to manage to sleep... wtf is that all about?!

Rant Time Rant...

Ok... so last week there was the massive and terrible earthquake in Chilli... now I'm not hear to dwell on this tragedy, I am here purely because one of the knock-on effects of this got me thinking...

It was quite a big news story that the earthquake was so powerful that it knocked the earth's axis by about 3 inches. Now this doesn't seem too huge I suppose, but this does mean that our days are now shorter... by about one millionth of a second... Ok so that doesn't sound like alot either... and after doing the math it would seem we are due an extra day in the year 130373... so remember future... I told you so... but I will get back to my proposed party day between new years eve and January the first later (thank me then world of many tomorrows...).

The thing that got me thinking is time...

Time as we know it is based on the fundamental that the earth rotates upon it's axis and causes a constant passing of the sun across the sky... this has always been a fixed amount of time, meaning that sundials don't need repositioning at all. A day, was one passing of the sun, and hour was 1/24th of this, a minute 1/60th of an hour, and a second 1/60th of a minute... so what now? A day is shorter, so now so too are hours, seconds, minutes and all other smaller denominations.

So does this mean that time we have changed time by national desaster? and what about speed? meters per second, miles per hour... do we now have to drive fractionally slower? will distance therefore change? A lightyear being the distance that light travels in a year... now falls a few "meters" short...

Sadly while all this amazing ranting was rushing through my head I came to a realisation... time is time, and our measures of it are flawed at best. We created measures of time divided up roughly... and we sucked at it... we had to change the calendar alot to get it to actually match the length of a year... but then we realised that a year wasn't perfectly divisible by days... so we have a leap-year... an extra day every 4 years to correct ourselves... but then this isn't quite right so we then make another fiddle every 100years or so... so perhaps my proposed party day will simply be introduced every 130374 years... Or perhaps by then we will be out the other way with our calculations and my awesome day will be used to absorb an abundance of left over day.

Ok so I am going OTT hypothetical now... but still you get the idea, and sadly there is the far more likely scenario that going by the "equal and opposite" theory we will have some equally terrible tragedy causing an effect that will cancel out this shift.... though I imagine I will be dead and without due method of blogging by then (assuming my immortality machine fails).

So until next time (which I am hoping to be sooner, I will attempt more frequent posts)... you stay classy world!