Sleep Based Rant

So this is something that really bugged me in the past, and especially last night.

As those of you who know me will know I suffer from insomnia... which quite frankly sucks... so this often leaves me sleeping at stupid times for not that long, leaving my sleeping pattern totally f*cked. Recently I had some friends come up n visit which was great, but part of this was staying up till about 7am chatting and catching up on things.

I decided (wisely or otherwise) that I would stay up the next night and wait till the next night before sleeping so as to reset my body clock... Throughout the day this seemed to be going well, I didn't feel awake, n in the early evening I felt quite drowsy at time. However at about 10:30 when I decided to watch the latest 24 before sleeping at an not unreasonable (for a student) 11:15... suddenly my body decided it wasn't tired after all and so I didn't manage to get to sleep till about 4am... I woke at about 4pm so decided to repeat the process this time more successfully... I fell asleep about 1am while waiting for a reply from a friend, slept so deeply infact that I received 3 texts in the night without noticing.

This brings me on to my point that I discovered. Late night texting can lead to lying in bed waiting for the person to text back, while closing your eyes and resting. Now I found my self slowing drifting off between each reply within a few minutes of placing my phone down, only to wake again each time I get a text. Which in itself isn't so bad, and is restful at least.

The thing that really annoyed me is that the instant the conversation ended, the good nights were said, and I put my phone down, this time waiting for nothing, allowing my self to surcome to the sleep... nothing... I simply can't sleep... despite the fact that I am now willing to sleep whereas before I wasn't, now I can't sleep... it took me a further hour of restlessness to manage to sleep... wtf is that all about?!