So I'm on holiday now, but I feel the need to blog this... as I said I am taking the week off from my no drinking... I am still trying to eat healthily though, and will do my best to exercise daily (though sadly I failed today)
The main part of this post was initially written on my phone, but the trouble is it broke... so I lost it... but I think I can vaguely remember it... so here goes
This was a variation on a scrubs quote I posted earlier...
Because when I lay awake at night staring at the ceiling, just wishing that I had someone to talk to... I take no comfort from... wait... it sickens me... that those lucky bastards who take for granted what they have... abuse it... and waste it... don't even have a clue how lucky they are!.. they waste and squander what I would as near as literally kill to have... I'm not even kidding... I can't stand it... I have to force myself to bite my tongue in these situations... it sickens me...
An example I can give... the one that inspired me to write this now as apposed to later... for the past week (though I'm sure it is more) I have been craving a cuddle, so much that it seriously hurts... and I don't want to sound like a whiny sensitive bitch but I can't help it... I miss cuddles... not huggs... proper long cuddles... a bit of intimacy... but in a nice affectionate way... not sexually... so when I girl asks you for a cuddle... and you ignore her... I don't even have the words to describe what the FUCK is wrong with you... a chance I would just not pass up... it made me hurt inside so fucking much... ok... so I may be a little oversensitive 'cause I'm at least half-cut now... on a pitiful 3 pints haha... but ah well...
Now one thing to add... Is I am very thankful to the one girl who I can still get cuddles off, although she is totally just a friend... but it was so nice, for the whole song that it lasted... I guess it's worth coming back to my home town for... but for lack of wanting to sound even more pathetic than I already do... I'ma leave this blog-post where it is...
Erm... and just for the record... I'm not going to edit this now, to keep the truth and stuff... so I'll post this when I next get internet connection... peace out and big love :)
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