QOTD

The only thing you should give up is giving up...

QOTD

"It is much better to regret those things which failed in the attempt, than to regret not trying at all."

The Blog...

So alot of this blog more recently has been more about me getting things off my chest... on a heavier emotional level, as opposed to a ranting level... and there is certainly a distinct lack of quotes...

I'm going to try and bring things back to basics here, making sure there is at the very least a quote to go with my feelings, and try and bring back the anger, this happiness and optimism is making the interwebs less fun... and I feel that while I like the fact that there is about 6 people who know who I am with the access to my spouts of feelings... it would be nice to grow the blog...

thoughts anyone?

big love xxx

wtf...

Why is it that what's all good and fun seem to always get out of hand, and the simplest little stupid thing can get blown into something that it isn't...

It seems that every time I'm involved in practical joking in a group, be it drunken or sober, whatever part I'm involved in seems to be the one that causes the hurt... why... it's not like I do anything that isn't done by others, or infact before or after me... yet it's always seemingly more significant...

However trivial I know the thing is... and will seem again come morning and full explanation I sill feel shit... guilt ridden... and quite frankly like giving up...

Yes there is a story behind this pathetic excuse for a rant... but not one I'm going into unless you really want to know...

that's all for now... more to follow I'm sure xxx

I cba with 1000 words so here's a picture...

The Butterfly Effect...

Now to clarify, this isn't me having a rant at the appalling sequels of one of my favourite all time movies... nor is it a story about tornado's in Japan... more taking the idea of one thing leading to another...

It occurred to me today, that I owed a lot to one decision of "fuck-it" why the hell not... If I hadn't decided to throw reason to the wind, not care about how I was getting home, or how I was going to afford it... then I would never have taken the last minute ticket to see switchfoot last week...

Had that not happened then I wouldn't have had one of the best nights of my life, catching up with a friend who I hadn't seen for too long... nightseeing round london...

Also I wouldn't have met someone who's kind of changed my perspective on things abit... I was all about the pessimism... and now I'm not, optimism is springing back into my life... and while this scares me... and quite frankly I feel like a need a shower after each depression-void thought... I guess it's alot better than the alternative...

I'm also starting to think that I didn't fuck up my only chance at happiness this year... so I put on a happy... no, wait... brave face for the world... but messing up things with jess back in winter crippled me emotionally... alot more than I let on... somehow managed to keep it from my roommate... but I guess there was a considerable part of me that gave up on the idea of love, or ever finding someone... I just assumed that everytime I found someone that I could see myself being happy with... it would never happen... and pessimistically I deemed myself destined to be alone...

With hindsight it was... naive I guess... and I know, its such an ugly word for someone so beauti- anyways... but I guess I was stupid to think that in this big old world there wouldn't be another girl I could see myself with... and it was stupid to think that despite, my hermit like lifestyle, I would probably not meet anyone new with whom things felt... right... like I really clicked with... an unforced... natural connection...

So if you read one of my previous post then you'll know who I'm talking about... and yes it is silly of me to feel this wrapped up over a girl I met just once, and has a boyfriend... and I probably will have an angry rant about guys getting girls they don't deserve in the immanent future... but things just feel so easy... and right... and while I'm not wanting to break any hearts... I feel things are going well... so I'm pretty sure that even if things don't pan out with the end result I ultimately aspire to... that this has done me good... and will teach me a few things about life for now... even if I forget to learn from them in the future...

Cheers for listening if you made it this far... and if you got this via facebook, why not make my day and give it a like...

Big love xxx

WHY DOES IT STILL GET TO ME!!!!!

Ok, so this is somewhat a venting of anger... so it will probably read badly... so sorry...

it's been years since these events have passed and they were stupid little things even at the time, so why the fuck do these things keep replaying in my head and over and over again keep getting to me, keep pissing me off about the double standards in life... it's not like it pissed me off any more at the time... so why am I still supposedly cut up about them?!?!?!

and for that matter why does any of this keep replaying in my head... I've moved on from that haven't I? or have I... the amount it goes over would sadly suggest not... which is total bull crap... its been over a year and a half now... bitch needs to GTFO of my head..........

.... for now

Can has fanpage

Just a quicky, there is now a fanpage on facebook for "Quotes and Rants"

http://www.facebook.com/pages/Quotes-and-Rants/130843306942480

Please "Like" it, it's a combination of these posts, twitter posts and the occasional unique facebook thing. All slotting nicely into your homepage...

Also I will try and get one of the little fan boxes going for this sight... who knows

Until next time, big love xxx

What's that supposed to mean?...

So when giving advice of the heart, everyone seems to pussy-foot around, afraid of hurting people... but I've noticed something... It's going to cause a lot less hurt to just tell them straight and cut them loose...

Now I know I have no right to rant at others with this one... seeing as it's something I do myself... but at-least I'm aware of my guilt in this hypocrisy... and I'm sorry for doing it... from now on I'm going to try and cut the crap from now on...

So the little thing that set me off on this one is this... "It's just not the right time right now" ... now I've been wondering... is that "It's not the right time now, so hold on, and it will be later, don't give up" ... or is it "It's not going to happen, but I don't want to hurt your feeling with that knowledge too much"?... because if it was the second, I could handle it, like I could take wrecking ball to the face rejection at this early stage, but if I'm to hold on thinking it's a, only to find out later, when I'm alot more involved, that it is infact b, that will be alot more crushing...


So be clearer people... its the kinder thing to do!

Big love as always xxx

(8) She's a pretty girl, she's always falling down, and I think I just fell in love with her...

So this post is only mildly related to the title, I just love those lyrics (+44 - Baby, Come On)

Basically this is a rant / seek of approval / request for advice, comment(s) or advice in person GREATLY appreciated (hints J, GG, and DB)...

Ok, So I am considering breaking one of my cardinal rules of life. I always said never to make (or even begin to make) a move on a girl with a boyfriend...

Yesterday I met a great girl, we really hit it off, just clicked, and I was not the only on who noticed a connection like that I thought great, maybe things are picking up... then I heard the two-word phrase that made me sink inside... "her boyfriend"...

Now usually this is a clear walk away and give up... but here's how it's been layed down to me but someone relatively close to her: Her boyfriends a dick (he brings a gun to school...), he's been treating her like crap, and a lovely girl like her deserves a "good guy" (his words not mine) to treat her right... they are in relationship trouble, and I think you two would be great together...

So the big question is, does that make it ok? and to what extent is it ok? if indeed it IS ok...

I just don't know, I seem to feel that it's ok here, just get to know her well, get close, and see where it goes... I've even got a man on the inside helping with a good word to her sister, and I seemed to have made a good impression on her somehow :S

So while I know what I want to do... what SHOULD I do? ... thanks in advance,

Big love to you all

xxx

EDIT: The other thing I meant to touch on, is relating back to the last post, how much of a bastard does this make me for moving on before telling her... should I hold fire till I've had a proper talk, or is there no way to make this right...

Self Aimed Rant

So, this is something ive been meaning to rant on for a while...


Ive a'ways complained about how the girl never goes for the good guy... So karma had to prove me wrong.

For those who don't know, just before i returned to uni after my last return, i was asked out... Well more ambushed while backed into a corner by her and a friend, bt verbal'y the same lol..

Now my response was 'i dont know' because i really wasnt sure how i felt about the girl...

So i guess this rant is aimed at me... I complain about it never happening, and when it does... Well.. Quite frankly i feel nothing for her... Dnt get me wrong, she's a love'y girl... Bt i dnt feel that deeper connection that she does... Wtf?

I guess the worst part is i hav no idea how to tell her, we've hardly spoken, ive got no mins, she got barred... N when we hav, its been an arkward unresponsive dialogue that i cud no way drop it in... N im ashamed of myse'f for it...

So i guess my right to complain has been removed... Bt that sure wont stop me haha... Maybe one day fate will have it all work out

Im off to a gig, take care all xxx