It's been a month, and I've felt like every update I'd considered so far has been purely for the sake of it. I can't say this one's much different, but it's an update with some news at least.
The month's been ups and downs, mostly ups, but there have been times when I've felt really shit, or worried excessively about things. So I'm on some med's now, pretty simple stuff, 3/day, all natural, no prescription. These seem to be good, but I end up feeling really tired as a result. On closer inspection I discovered them to be no different in make-up to my sleeping pills. Essentially their solution to anxiety is sedation, can't worry if I'm asleep eh? It's a bit of a joke, but tbh I'm not too bothered, they seem to do what they're meant to, I stay calm, and unsurprisingly I'm sleeping a little better at night while on them. The only trouble is I can't drink while on them. I don't mean problem as in I can't stay off the stuff, but there are some occasions when social occasions where drinking is a nice activity among friends, so I have to plan in advance to not take them that day, a little bit of a fag really. Also, a listed possible side effect is depression. My reaction to this is one of complete whatthefuckery. I don't understand how that's an acceptable side effect of something that's quite similar in traits and often go hand in hand with each other.
Well, 'nough said on the matter, moving on to other things. I guess as a general statement, "I'm trying, but not sure how well the progress is going" could apply to just about everything right now, so fuck-it, that'll do. Until next time.
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