Hey,

It's been about a month since my last post, so sorry for that, about half of it I had no internet for (I moved house) but the other half I haven't really got an excuse... just forgot about it really, which is irresponsible, if nothing else this blog helps me keep my mind in check... so I guess I've let my self down lol.

So for starters, I'm drinking atm, so bare with me... I'm not drinking in a bad way, I just fancied it, so why the hell not.

I tried and succeeded for a while in stepping my game up and turning over a new leaf, I was working out each morning, being in bed before midnight, and I had a positive outlook on life, generally I was well on my way to a new me. But then I let it all slip for a week, I went away, enjoyed myself, visited friends... now there's nothing wrong with this, but I wasn't productive, now while this is my own doing, and no I don't regret it or place any 'blame' on those I visited, when I got back, I'd stopped the routine, so I wasn't being productive, wasn't getting up and working out... on the plus side though my healthy living regime did continue, buying and eating more fresh fruit and veg, and cooking properly from scratch. Now while this has taken a dip lately (due to being poor and living off whatever is in my cupbords... but I see that one returning, if only because I will have so little money that I won't be able to afford the ready made foods I will be forced to live off whatever is on offer that I can rustle together, (every cloud...).

One thing that saddens me though, I seem to have given up on (or atleast accepted temporary defeat on) is a personal dream of mine, I can't afford to peruse it, and I haven't made proper time for it. Yes I return to cycling in the blogs (skip to next para if you want) but I was telling myself all summer how I would be racing by the start of this season. I trained through most of summer, but then took a week off, which became a month off, and now I've been on at most four proper rides in the past month... on the positive I have been riding into campus and back about 2wice every day, and when I say riding I mean sprinting, but this is very little consolation when I consider how easily I gave up on myself... perhaps that says something about who I am or something... I don't know... thoughts?

Attendance, last year it was beyond poor... I was lucky to be hitting 60%... this year I have attended all bar one of my lectures so far, and have been paying better attention in them, which is good... but still room for improvement, but something I intend to go the whole mile with, this is now my life, what I do here, not only am I paying for, but it defines who I will become, my success for the rest of my life is for the majority dependant on how much I put in to the next 2-4 years of my life, and while at times I significantly lack drive, I aim to give it my all.

I'm going to set some personal goals here... hopefully by making them public I will be more inclined to keep to them, I'll post updates, and please bug me about it... it'll help:

• I'm going to try and get into the habit of a regular sleep pattern, bed by 11, rise by 7, it will kill me at first, but will benefit me later, if I can keep it without break for a couple of weeks then hopefully I should adjust to it.


• Condition my body, this may or may not be bull, but if I believe it, it should work, lights out in the evening will help my body shut down, no late meals, reduced caffeine intake, and on waking, few deep breaths, glass of cold water, and then exercise, almost immediately... should help with my trouble getting up


• propper bike ride at least 2wice a week. Re-join the club if I can afford it, but if not, do my own rides on wednesdays and weekends, distance can be weather permitting.


• stop taking my laptop to lectures, so far it's only distracted me.


• Game less, I've been doing it alot recently, and want to cut back to more sensible hours, I probably should define sensible, but I can't think of it yet, I will do later.


• Finally, not give up on the goal I set last time, Mountain Mayhem 2011, just gotta get the team together...

So a pretty lengthy update this time, hopefully you made it this far, more to come soon, as of monday I may attempt to do daily progress updates, we'll see... take care of yourself, and I'll try to aswell. Big love xxx